Madness In Disguise

by Slay My Sanity

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Recorded at home studio somewhere around 2013-2014. Brought to the world with passion towards the music we love.

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released January 14, 2015

Lyrics - Alexey Varfolomeyev
Music by Dmitry Timofeyev #4,7,10,11,12
Music by Danil Chernovalov #1,2,3,5,6,8,9,13
Arrangements by Andrey Shirokov and Maxim Sakhno

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Slay My Sanity Chelyabinsk, Russia

Slay My Sanity were formed back in 2009 in Chelyabinsk by Alex, Dmitry and Danil. It took them another couple of years to complete the formation of the line-up. The ensemble was forced to go through lengthy breaks due to two members serving in the army. With everybody back in business and scores of gigs played, Slay My Sanity got down to recording a debut album which they finally released in 2015 ... more

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Track Name: Roll On One
roll on one

no, this was not my voice I swear
these were not my words that shattered
someone else's life

right, I will have to be the one
I will see the eyes of suffering
that will curse, that will damn my soul

when the storm shakes your essence
when the soul creeps outside
you will stab me with your question
tell me why tell me why

roll on one, roll on two
this is me and that is you
an abyss between the men
living in their own hells

fear, this is fear what I've become
when I wake up and it feels
like I'm about to ignite

pain, this is pain what I seed
what I hear and what I see
all the time, all my life

with so many ghosts that haunt me
with the screams inside my head
life has turned into demise now
and demise is what I am

roll on one, roll on two
this is me and that is you
an abyss between the men
living in their own hells

with the dead walking behind me
with the dead walking ahead
I will drown into madness
with my soul forever dead
Track Name: Tears Run Dry
Tears Run Dry

time has no mercy on me, nor do I.
i torture my memories, but they won't die...

i'll never ever again restore thy face
you'll never ever betray my trust and faith

scarred so bad by yesterday,
i can't escape my pain.
why don't they just fade away?
i feel I run insane

so desolated inside I can't reach the skies,
with my emotions run out and tears run dry.
Track Name: Stoned
Stoned, I am lying in the blood of my own
Stoned, I've been paying for what I've been told

There will be a doomsday
There will be an end
I have walked a right way
To the promised land

Stoned me dead, stoned me dead
I was your salvation
Stoned me dead, you stoned me dead
Now it's your damnation

Saved, I am watching you all enslaved
Saved, I will live beyond my grave
There will be a doomsday
There will be an end
I have walked a right way
To the promised land

Stoned me dead, stoned me dead
I was your salvation
Stoned me dead, you stoned me dead
Now it's your damnation
Track Name: A Nobody's Shadow
a nobody's a shadow

I, I close my eyes
Isolation from your lies
A nobody's shadow
Grinning down at me

I stay off your ways
On this mass illusion day
A nobody's shadow
Spitting in my face

fed on oblivion
powered by a wordless noise
that's how you're living
nothingness fills the void

a nobody's shadow's watching
from behind the broken glass
what you've done, where you've gone
is erased

stay away, stay away
edge of madness down the way
see the angels of depressions
with their cruel eyes ablaze

stay away, stay away
silence is the only way
you are nameless, you are faceless
you’re a pawn in this game

faces, rayless suns of the souls
smiles, wingless birds of dead emotions
me, hollow mannequin of flesh
you, but a shadow of no one

a nobody's shadow's watching
from behind the broken glass
what you've done, where you've gone
all in vain
toungeless servant, armless soldier
scorch my body, I never will
walk with you, escape with you
to the Shadow land

I, I close my eyes
Isolation from your lies
A nobody's shadow
Grinning down at me

I stay off your ways
On these mass illusion days
A nobody's shadow
Spitting in my face
Track Name: Faceless And Masked
cyber cage for your mind and soul
feeds you on the tales of plague
see the eyes that do not see
what is real and what may hurt

we're fooled, we're led
by a faceless man
enslaved, enchained
by our own...

will you update me
a newly born day
vague is tomorrow
lost is my way

a disease or a remedy
will you slay my sanity

so they say we're gonna die
if we ain't a part of scheme
I'm lost in eternal lie
only way to be redeemed

we're fooled, we're led
by a faceless man
enslaved, enchained
by our own...

will you update me
a newly born day
vague is tomorrow
lost is my way

a disease or a remedy
will you slay my sanity

put on masks and hide your grins
we are mad we are forced to smile
in this peace only conflicts win
in a hell-styled paradise

we're fooled, we're led
by a faceless man
enslaved, enchained
by our own hands
Track Name: Across The Pain
Across The Pain

in a saint-like attire
with a look of a martyr
you came to bring me a word
are your tales of unreal
are your dreams of unseen
gonna overpower my world?

cause my past is too harrowed to be spoken
and I am way too crazy to be woken

i won’t pray, this won’t save
i will walk across the pain
when it's done, nowhere to run,
but to walk across the pain.

do I fear the wrath of God?
do you feel the fate of Phaine?
what exactly do YOU know
of the everlasting pain?

cause my past is too harrowed to be spoken
and I am way too crazy to be woken

i won’t pray, this won’t save
i will walk across the pain

take your lullaby with you
only thing that you can do

can’t escape from the past
this will forever last
there’s a scar right through my life
no more words of a faith
i will bury my face
in my hands and bitter cry

i won’t pray, this won’t save
i will walk across the pain
when it's done, nowhere to run,
but to walk across the pain.

across the pain I’ll walk
across the pain you’ll walk
across the pain they’ll walk
across the pain, go!
Track Name: Narayama
i know we all
have horrid visions
where time is the gallows
age is the axe

tormented by fear
to take this decision
cursed by the knowledge
that you'll be the next

mothers to your own killers,
you have blessed their crime

we all walk the same way
gathering faith, counting days
to Narayama
cycle of madness,again and again
human inside me eventually slain

you! you're the way to my demise
you're the way to distant skies
you're the mercy in disguise
but don't you blame yourself, i pray

i only pray
to god to send snow
coldness is better
than hunger and beasts

long is the way
deep is the sorrow
don't turn your eyes
to the corpses beneath

that's not your will nor is it mine,
don't blame yourself for god's design

i.i am more than you can have
i. i am less than nothingness
i. i am all that has been left,
a living ghost, a mother's name

you're afraid to do a sacred rite
more than I'm afraid to die
Track Name: Acherontia Styx
see the things the way I do
wear my eyes instead of glasses
for the visions of the wild

lead me not, follow me not
just believe I am
taste me not, learn me not
you won't understand

and you'll see what is deep inside
of the one who likes butterflies

and my eyes will be scanning you
and my grin will betray your guards
let the mad haunt the mad
let the silence come
with the first steps of insanity

let me fly like a butterfly
let me be Acherontia Styx

let the wings of the butterfly
take you to the heart of serenity
i am watching the sensations
i adore the struggle
you are losing to my madness
my madness
Track Name: Embrace The Emptiness
… insignificant
crawling under my feet in the dark
is the city so mean and so weak
leaving nothing but decay and reek
i can’t be part of…
i can be part of this no more

in the cold of the night
in the void of the day
in the dirt of the past
in the fog of the dreams
there is no place for me
there is no place for me no more

in the slush of beliefs
in the mess of hope
in the weakness of words
in the mist of ideas
there is no place for me
there is no place for me

…unremarkable
standing here alone on the edge
getting ready to make this last move
proving nothing and seeking no truth
i can’t be part of...

the emptiness is waiting

the starlight is slitting my eyesight
but I don’t wanna see?
no!
the thunder, it deafens me blank
but do I want to hear?
no!

wasting, i’m wasting my religion
i am wasted for the visions
and who will give a damn?
slaying, i’m slaying my beginnings
i’m slain for believing
as I embrace the emptiness

the emptiness is waiting
Track Name: Venomous Sunrise
need your warmth to believe there’s no end
need your words it is not all in vain
to believe this was you
to believe this was me

when the memories die in the flames of the times
there’s my hope I find in your voice
oh my god, let us hide from the dawn

how can I disbelieve, how can I be afraid
this is us who will carry the light
is it us who will dwell in the night?

you
gave me shelter from my wounded past
built a temple to worship my love
now it’s you who lives inside me

i
trod a distance within your caress
found a heaven inside your embrace
let me die on your hands
before the…

venomous sunrise, venomous sunrise
rays scar my eyes
venomous sunrise, venomous sunrise
sun slays the dream

i’m the traces you left
i’m the moon you adored
i’m the flame you asked me to keep

i’m the words you forgot
i’m a lie in your life
i’m the night we failed to preserve

need your lies to believe there’s no end
need your touch to believe I’m alive
to believe this is true
to believe this was true

when the sunrise arrives there’s no time to forgive
there’s no time to promise again

when the venom of light speeds through ashes of night
i will know this is the last time
Track Name: The Viewer
i've seen this face, I've heard this voice
but these are stranger's eyes
a storming heart cries out for help
but it gets no reply

unable to prove,
unskilled to explain
i am nothing
but a viewer of pain
unable to prove
unskilled to explain
i am nothing

veiled with despair, a blinded soul
is trapped by growing fears
i try to speak, but helpless words
fall into the abyss

unable to prove,
unskilled to explain
i am nothing
but a viewer of pain
unable to prove
unskilled to explain
i am nothing but a viewer of
madness in disguise

whispers crisping in the mist
a calm than never comes
someone else instead of me
better be renounced

sordid demons of confusion
make your friends arch enemies
and the deepest silence ever
breeds the voices of distress

can't bring you back the solitude
can't haunt away the screams
you're not alone when no one's here
you see what only seems

unable to prove,
unskilled to explain
I am nothing
but a viewer of pain
unable to prove
unskilled to explain
I am nothing but a viewer of
madness in disguise